When life feels too much

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…. Trigger Warning ….

This is a topic that I want to write on, something I want to get out of my system and to share but I am very aware that what I am going to say will be upsetting, maybe slightly scary and possibly a bit graphic at times.

Hopefully this will help break some of the stigma around suicide and help others understand the issues around it a bit more.

Please don’t read this if you’re feeling vulnerable or really low.

If any of the things I write about in this post do affect you then please contact a friend or relative or get in contact with one of the numbers below:

Saneline: 0300 304 7000 (4:30 pm – 10:30pm every day)

The Samaritans: 116 123

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“Anything Goes” Cookies

I came across this recipe when I had 75g of butter left and needed to use it up before I left my house at uni for the summer. I have made this recipe a few times and it makes very impressive cookies.

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Hoodwinked

hoodwinkedHoodwinked was a sculpture trail that came to Nottingham city centre over the summer in 2018. There were thirty-three robin sculptures placed around the city and each one was uniquely decorated. Most of them were bright and colourful too. Continue reading “Hoodwinked”

Kindertransport

kindertransportA modern classic drama, Kindertransport has been on at Nottingham Playhouse for most of October 2018. I went to see it with a friend and we both really enjoyed it. It was historical yet relevant. The story was interesting and you were able to lose yourself in what was happening on the stage. Continue reading “Kindertransport”

Change – slow but sure


When life is tough, when it seems like a struggle to face each day, when it seems like things are at their very worst then I have to take the effort to recall that I am in a better place than I was earlier this year, that it is tough but I have made a lot of progress. Continue reading “Change – slow but sure”

Gingerbread Brownies

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I fancied making these as I love brownies and I love gingerbread. What could be better than combining in the two products together?

I made this cake for work and it proved to be popular. (I was particularly thankful for this as I had never tried this recipe before and wasn’t totally sure that it would work!)

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One month on…


One month on from returning home after Soul Survivor.
One month on from experiencing a huge amount of healing in regard to my mental health, especially anorexia.
One month on from moving to a new city to start a new job and a new chapter of my life.

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Colouring

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There are a number of activities which I do to try and relax, rest or stay calm.

Sometimes they work and sometimes they don’t, it really depends on exactly how I am feeling.

One of my favourite things to do is colouring.

I have worked my way through quite a lot of colouring books in the last few years. My favourites are country village scenes or images which feature a lot of flowers.

I don’t really like the geometric patterns or images which appear in most of the mindfulness colouring books.

I have also enjoyed doing adult dot-to-dot colouring books as I can make the picture and then colour it in too. Extra fun!

I find that the act of colouring gives my brain something to focus on which distracts me from unwanted intrusive thoughts. It also gives me something to do with my hands. I have noticed that I seem to like having things to do with my hands – either knitting when I watch TV or twiddling a pen around in lectures and seminars.

The process of completing a picture is also satisfying and the final piece if often pretty and brings some joy, even if it is only for a short while.

You don’t need much to be able to enjoy the act of colouring which makes it even better as a way to relax. Some paper and colouring pencils are the only things required. If you’re food at drawing then you can create your own pictures to colour. If not, then there are numerous books in many shops and online which you can choose from.

It may seem like a hobby for children but honestly, you’re never too old to enjoy a good session of colouring!

Book Review: Honesty over Silence

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When we were at Soul Survivor, a number of books were recommended during one of the main meetings. It wasn’t to sell more books, make more money, and promote their own work but to help us grow as people and as Christians.

One of the books that was mentioned was Honesty over Silence by Patrick Regan. Continue reading “Book Review: Honesty over Silence”